29. Notes - with humility and without words

21 December 2018

       Afternoon. Kim called and invited you to breakfast with at Scrambler Marie's off Polaris. You and Carol were pleasantly surprised because Paul came also. Late this afternoon Carol, Cathy, Tod and you are to dinner at Old Bag of Nails in Uptown Westerville. You haven't visited for a while. 

       1431 hours. Steve G. called while we were at breakfast and later in January we will see Steve and Karen at lunch one day and invite them over to see our new house. After the call I mentioned that Steve is the only friend I have that has the even-reasoning 'engineering mind' personality that best fit that of Neil Armstrong. Both taught engineering at the college level. I am almost always comfortable around electrical engineers -- those I have met or known appear honest with practical sense of humor in their manner and behavior, and as such, to me, lean towards being trustworthy by nature.

       Your opinion, of course. - Amorella

       1444 hours. I'm rambling on about Steve, an old friend. What I say about my friends is the truth as I see it. It is not an opinion; it is an observation.

       What brought that on? - Amorella

       1449 hours. I don't know. It brings me to think about personal spiritual experiences though. When I have written about them I don't remember my responses being opinions; they were personal observations. My confusions are in labeling. I have for many decades considered myself either a transcendental existentialist or an existential transcendentalist. I am closer to the latter since retirement. Were you an Angel Amorella, and I knew without doubt you were indeed an Angel and you asked me point-blank which I was, I would probably say, "I don't know."

       Do you love G-D? - Amorella

       1504 hours. Why do you ask this? Yes, I love G-D, but if you asked me to then define love, I would be in a pickle. My former student Kym S. in 1983 once asked me in my office, "What is love, Mr. Orndorff?" and I found myself unable to come up with a satisfying answer. Love is (in part) standing fast, in obligation to be true to one's self; to recognize the truth within and to act accordingly. That's what love is, at least in part. Well, so since 1983 I have learned something. How about that. 

       You would have responded no differently here were I a real Angel, boy. Interesting, huh? - Amorella

       1515 hours. Yes. And, in the process you leave me in wonderment, real wonderment; with humility and without words.)

       Post. - Amorella