183. 9 August 2019
Mid-afternoon. You just finished takeout McD's Egg McMuffins and small fries at Heritage Park, facing west opposite the shelter house. Carol is on page 116 of The House of Secrets by Brad Meltzer. A very relaxing day with low humidity, eighty degrees and sunny. This morning you worked on ridding the quite heavy box of its computer desk contents piece by piece because you couldn't lift it out of the trunk. Carol mowed the front and sides of grass, you still have to trim. She has the back to mow this evening. Such is a sample of your daily week. - Amorella
1532 hours. I really like the thick rain forest-like atmosphere of tree trunks and green in front of the car and through the outside glance in the rearview mirror. I know the Natives lived in this area less than a hundred and fifty years ago from the stories Popo Orndorff told me in my youth. He personally knew a few of them. He also met Buffalo Bill and Annie Oakley and some famous baseball players of his day. I saw the autographs. Some players were of the National Negro League. What I gleaned from these experiences in my youth is that when I shook Popo's hand and touched the photographs I empathetically via imagination touch the writers and all the people Popo Orndorff had shaken hands with. The same with Grandma Orndorff and Uncle Ernie and Aunt Patsy and Grandma and Popo Schick. I don't know if there is a name for this beyond imagination, but to me it has always had reality to it. All my life I have gathered a symbiotic relationship with the people and places of the world. This is a continuous feeling throughout my living. The 'necessity' to absorb all the life and experience I can, mostly if not all imagination, I know, but I enrich myself by it. (1548)
This embarrasses you to be so honestly frank. You would never speak of this to anyone, but it is 'inside', a part of who you are. It is certainly you since the age of three. Were I an Angel, I'd vouch for you. - Amorella
1552 hours. I don't know if Angels really exist, Amorella. Some things, even spiritual matter can't be verified by human beings.
How did I know this sort of attitude would pop up out of nowhere; and through the mention of an Angel no less. - Amorella
1557 hours. I sense the contradiction with yesterday's blog. I can do nothing but than accept my humanity and further, accept the humility that goes with begin humane. It is our divided nature, spiritual and material. One cannot battle two obvious truths. I am attached, heartansoulanmind. I will argue my divided nature no more in this lifetime. It is foolish to deny what one is. What every human being is -- spiritual and physical both at once. (1604)
Mr. Orndorff, most secretly, have you ever felt you have 'touched' your raw, once empty soul, me, Ms Havisham?
1608 hours. I have not had such a blunt and forthright metaphysical question in my entire life, Ms Havisham. -- I find this 'touched' concept in context, possible but not plausible.
Why would you find the concept even possible, Mr. Orndorff? - mh
After supper, hamburger, baked beans and veggies, you finished the trimming the grass for the night because the battery discharged and you are recharging it overnight. You will complete the work in the morning. Carol did finish her part of the mowing tonight. - Amorella
2143 hours. In order to answer your question Ms Havisham I have spent couple hours reviewing "transmigration of the soul" and "metempsychosis" (which are generally accepted as synonyms) because I thought "metempsychosis" would have given me a possible way to have touched your "raw once empty soul" as my spiritual heartanmind entered your raw once empty soul.
You are having a difficult time explaining yourself here. - Amorella
2216 hours. I have too much imagination, Amorella, it's as simple as that. I would just as soon let this go now. - 'Entanglement' just flashed to mind. Perhaps it is possible that the soul could become 'entangled' with another soul in some sort of quantum-like metaphysical entanglement, i.e. being in two souls at the same time and being in one soul or another.
What you wonder is this: "Possibly, I could have had one soul in 1984 and another soul in 1985. If this is so, then it might have been possible for me to have 'touched' Ms Havisham's raw once empty soul as I left my previous soul and entered my new soul, Ms Havisham." - Amorella
2230 hours. Yes. Amazing. I obviously had the words but not the clarity to use them properly. Thank you, Amorella. To clarify somewhere in the Encounters in Mind blog I wrote of such a mystical experience happening to me. It was the same time I was encountering the ghostly remains of a sailor who drown during World War II. The ghost had been in the next-door neighbor's house, it was a relative of his who had died in such a way. The neighbor explained that they had had a priest recently come to exorcise the house to rid them of this man's spirit who was troubling them. Who knows? I thought this might be what had happened and that for some reason this troubled spirit came next door to our house. We had both been hearing weird noises at night for about a week. I thought they were caused by the nearby Voice of American Bethany Station which was less than half a mile from our house. Sometimes we could hear the VOA station Portuguese language broadcasts late at night through the wood corner frames of the house nearest to the station (caused by very strong ground transmission waves). Ironically, it was the same VOA station we picked up and listened to when in Sao Paulo, Brazil. Anyway, it wasn't the VOA. I don't remember my exact written account of the poor suffering spirit. It was all rather untoward and frightening to me personally. I would have to try to find it. The soul exchange flash vision was the same night. (2255)
Try VOA as a key word. - Amorella
2301 hours. I can't locate it presently. I need to think of another keyword. 2314 hours. I searched with other keywords such as 'ghost' and 'Majken Place'. Nothing yet.
Post. - Amorella
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