139. 3 June 2019
Mid-morning. Carol is with Gayle with a stop at Schneider's for doughnuts before heading to Otterbein Cemetery to stake pots with artificial flowers created by niece Jean at the headstones of Mary Lou and Mom and Dad Hammond in the north old Cook section not far from the old Schick and Freeman sections. - Amorella
1004 hours. Your tone is reminding me of Thornton Wilder's Our Town, my favorite play of a lifetime of plays I have read and/or seen on stage or film. Strange how this is. Numbers two and three are Shakespeare's Hamlet and As You Like It; four is Sophocles'Antigone. In earlier stages of life, the top four plays were different titles and/or numerical orders. This is probably the list I'll go out
with.
You're not a candle, boy. - Amorella
1021 hours. It's just an expression, Amorella.
Not to you. You see yourself as a candle with a very small flame, actually mostly a warm, glowing wick, don't you think? - Amorella
That's about right, Amorella, a warm, glowing wick with little candle left. mh
1026 hours. Most of that wick is nothing but pomp and circumstance; Sir Edward Edgar's "Pomp and Circumstance", Westerville High School's senior graduation marching song in 1960. Mostly theatre before; mostly theatre since.
Early evening. Carol is out watering the new wildflowers in the back eight feet to the old fence. You had a nap but not good enough. As Steve G. uttered long, long ago, "Cheer up things are bound to get worse." The comment still makes you smile. Things did get worse, then eventually things got better to the point you have recognized for a long time now that thing are about as good as they are going to get at least on a personal greater family level. Do you agree? - Amorella
1902 hours. I do, Amorella. I have, overall, had a very fortunate life. I took off the Facebook postings of the blog about three this morning. A few might want to read them but if they do they can go to the blog online and look the pages up for themselves. No need to advertise mental shortcomings or otherwise. One of my worst fears, always, was the books would become best sellers. I would be terrified by the ridiculous commercial publicity of it all. The same with the blogs. I like to check the stats (hits) just like I like to check the stats on the car mileage. It would not be good for me to have it any different. A few readers is enough. Shoot, one is enough; though having none would be a lesson in humility. Nothing wrong with that either.
Post. - Amorella
2139 hours. Good. I'm tired anyway. We have to take the Avalon over to Columbus Audio to get a new protective shield for the front of the car as the other developed bubbles; at nine o'clock no less.
You have for your adult life secretly felt you are a stranger in a strange land. The science fiction aspects of the Merlyn books show evidence of this. It was as easy to pretend to be an alien marsupial humanoid from ThreePlanets as it was to be Merlyn and other characters from the post-Celtic Anglo-Saxon Isles both male or female. This is because you feel that the spirit only lives once and through imagination and empathy you wanted to experience as much of the world as you can while you are here. This really began when you talked to your grandparents about how life was for them growing up. You put yourself in their shoes as much as you could through imagination, recognizing early on that you were human and that they, being human, would have had similar childhood experiences but without cars and electricity. You experienced life on a farm without electricity at three, four, five and six which made such imaginary realism easier. You had ridden horses and been pulled by horse drawn wagons and sleighs on Auntie and Uncle Doc Haines' hundred-acre farm on Freeman Road north of Westerville, in Delaware County through the mid-forties on. You were born in 1942. The science fiction of Arthur C. Clarke and Isaac Asimov lead your imagination into probable futures, particularly Asimov when you were ten and eleven on. You feel you were born to write the Merlyn trilogy and you did in three years, one book a year self-published. mh
2051 hours. This is supposed to be about you, Miss Havisham, not about me. I know all these things and had written about them in pre-blog and blog days. Why are you reiterating them?
Because these 'things' are in me, in your soul, as well as in your heartanmind. mh
But a lot of this was spurred by reading and imagination not reality, particularly the future aspects, lots of reading.
Do you not think your imagination is a part of your human spirit? mh
2102 hours. I don't feel I ever thought about imagination in that way. I understand fully why once dead the spirit, if it continues, would desire to keep precious memories from having lived but what use would there be to have imagination once physically dead? I can understand how having an imagination is important in developing a metaphysical/spiritual aspect within, but once dead -- I assume as a whole spirit, you are then in the spiritual world. I like objectives and goals in my personal life, but I cannot imagine what objectives and goals I or anyone else would have in a spiritual life. Culture says we will be with our spiritual family groupings and Angels and G-D, not much else that I can remember. Heaven, Hell or Both or Neither. Spiritual stages perhaps. Reincarnation perhaps. I haven't heard much of anything else. (2120)
"Is there anything else?" is what you are thinking, orndorff, but you are suppressing the thought. - Amorella
2124 hours. I really don't want to know. It is not natural to know the objectives and goals or whatever of the human spiritual world. I can't imagine we just sit there and have good loving times or lie there under torture forever. All that would get boring either way. The human spirit does not like to be bored. If you know you are going to be loving and friendly or if you know you are going to be torn apart by monsters [every day or whatever timeless period] then what's the point? What is the bloodless spiritual point? Whatever it is we don't have and are not supposed to have the imagination for it. That's all I've got at the moment. (2134)
I agree wholeheartedly. mh
2137 hours. Total surprise with your response Miss Havisham.
Post. - Amorella
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