141. Notes - like beginning again / humor levels

141. 5 June 2019

       Mid-afternoon. Carol is in Kroger's at north end Westerville. You were going to walk but it looks like rain. - Amorella

       1551 hours. Yesterday fielded a different slant on the blog page. You and Miss Havisham were having a conversation while I listened in. I wouldn't know if it were normal or not, but I haven't been caught up in it before. I'm smiling because it was rather funny to observe, and more importantly, I learned something. Souls, by definition can allow accidents to happen by overprotecting a heartanmind. Is this correct (at least in here).

       For your benefit; this is for your inquiring mind orndorff. We are creating a metaphysical system between your heartanmind and your soul. This is theoretical, if you will, not fact. In context, assume this is all theoretical metaphysics, shortrange, if you will. - Amorella

       1601 hours. Shortrange Metaphysics, I like that. Good title. Readers may think it strange that such conversations can take place in my head. Truth is, as a fiction writer, conversations between characters happen all the time. I even allow them to carry on like I'm not here. I've mentioned this in my blogs over the years. I find it amusing that they can do this but if you are going to give your characters free will you can't take it away whoever she or he may be. 

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       I have never thought of myself as a personification in context; that is, before this blog experience. mh

       1638 hours. When writing fiction most everything observed about human beings is open to be shifted around, disguised and used. I use myself, parts of friends and acquaintances in smaller parts of my characters. I mention this in the Forward sections of the hardbound Merlyn books. I tried to make my Merlyn books plausible; and in my blogs, I attempted to show plausibility throughout. In the short and long run though, it is always fiction. This encountersinspirit blog is theoretical and metaphysical, but still fiction. And, I'm still an agnostic at heartanmind. 

       That's a change. - Amorella

       The Romantic, Mr. Orndorff, likes to consider himself like an embodiment of Caesar's Commentarii: "Gallia est omnis divisa in partes tres" [Commentaries: "Gaul is a whole divided into three parts"].  -mh

       

       1716 hours. Mrs. Maribelle Clary's Latin II class (1957-58) at Westerville High -- we had to translate and read the Latin version of Commentaries. It was so fascinating for me to read something direct from the hand (so to speak) of Julius Caesar in his own language. It was mesmerizing. Caesar was one of my first historical heroes along with the living ones, such as Churchill, FDR, and Eisenhower. I later read works by Churchill, FDR and Eisenhower.

       Caesar's words may not have moved into your soul, but the concept did. 'With words, one could, from the abstract, move into any writer's mind, so to speak'. mh

       1742 hours. Enough for now. This is so overwhelming within me. To remember the first time, to say aloud, "Gallia est omnis divisa in partes tres" . . . Awesome. It is like beginning again. 

       Post. - Amorella

       1945 hours. I had today's blog on Facebook for about an hour. No likes, no comments, so I took it off. Which was/is fine. Nothing new. I get excited with my writings sometimes and want to share; I do, then feel I shared enough so I take it off FB.

       I don't see a problem, orndorff. You do what moves you. With no likes and no comments, you thought it was up long enough anyway. Then when you checked you discovered six people had hit the page anyway. Relax. - Amorella

       Mostly you were embarrassed because there were no hits. Then, you were embarrassed because the first thing you thought of was that there were no hits. You know yourself better than this. You have little confidence in your writing self because few people are interested in reading or discussing what you think and write. This has been lifelong and thus nothing new. Deeper down, you don't really give a damn what people like or don't like anyway. You need to express yourself through writing so you do. That's really all there is to it, Mr. Orndorff. Let it go. mh

       2000 hours. You and Amorella can be so direct, but I appreciate it very much. Both of you have a sense of humor I can deal with. Humor levels me, I think it levels most everyone. People like smiles, wit and laughter even when they come from inner secret and sometimes conflicting thoughts. Humor can bring in a humbling wind and blow the conflicts away or at least subdue them for a while. 

       Post. - Amorella