134. 28 May 2019
Morning.You are parked facing west at the Oakland Nursery on Rt. 36/37 on the east side of Delaware. Carol and her sister Gayle are looking to buy perennials. Yesterday you had a few more checking out the blog with 140 hits this month alone. Yesterday you were a bit excited about the increase but today not so much. - Amorella
1032 hours. This type of blog walks a very thin line between Saturday night and Sunday morning. I am not a spiritualist and tend generally to look on them with much sardonic intent. Secret metaphysical showbusiness is what I think they are about. I know this is not completely true, basically my agnostic tendencies rule them out of being trustworthy.
Rather arrogant on your part, don't you think? - Amorella
1034 hours. Agnostics look for reasonable proof, for me, not entirely scientific proof because scientific proof demands validity. One can't scientifically proof Angels or G-D exist. This is the reason I am limiting my 'metaphysics' to the human spirit. This is something one can witness and validate. The soul as an element of the human spirit appears valid to me even if we have a problem with definition. We are built as spiritually oriented creatures. We think in a mythological way about the world and ourselves [humankind] as we reside in it. Joseph Campbell is the one most know about in terms of popularity in our culture. Mythology may have magical tones but it also has spiritual tones. People don't have to be religious to be spiritual, but one would hope religious people also show a true spiritual nature somewhere within behavior from time to time. (1045)
You 'talked' for eleven minutes and felt you overdid yourself and wanted to just 'shut up'. - Amorella
1047 hours. I talk too much. This is not supposed to be about my thoughts; it is supposed to be about our greater humanity and how to best use our heartansoulanmind to make ourselves better as individuals and as groups including the greater group: earthlings. If Miss Havisham exhibits real soul-like qualities this is really interesting. It is really interesting if she only exhibits reasonable soul-like qualities because I don't think our definitions of soul are specific enough, they need depth like the spiritual heart and spiritual mind have depth. Case in point.
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soul - noun 1 the spiritual or immaterial part of a human being or animal, regarded as immortal. • a person's moral or emotional nature or sense of identity: in the depths of her soul, she knew he would betray her. 2 emotional or intellectual energy or intensity, especially as revealed in a work of art or an artistic performance: their interpretation lacked soul. • African-American culture or ethnic pride. • short for soul music.3 the essence or embodiment of a specified quality: he was the soul of discretion | brevity is the soul of wit. • an individual person: I'll never tell a soul. • a person regarded with affection or pity: she's a nice old soul.
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1100 hours.
A. What does "regarded as immortal" suggest? In the definition is it immortal or not? I don't like the lack of specifics but they are missing because people do not know whether the soul is immortal or not so to be polite they suggest that it is, to appease both the spiritual/religious people and the agnostic/atheist people.
B. "A person's moral or emotional nature or sense of identity" is fine but how is that different from one's spiritual heart and mind? Heart and soul could be easily interchanged.
Mid-afternoon. Lunch at Cracker Barrel with Carol and Gayle. Home and a nap for you while the ladies surveyed the yard potential for new flower placements. - Amorella
1458 hours. Miss Havisham, from your perspective what would be a good dictionary definition of a human soul?
Mr. Orndorff, from your perspective what would be a good dictionary definition of a human being? - mh
1504 hours. I see what you mean. Funny. Ill thought question on my part. Sorry.
No need to apologize to me for being who you are. mh
1516 hours. I apologize to Amorella when I feel it is appropriate and polite and out of respect.
You should, if it is out of respect. mh
1519 hours. I agree. I do not always know what is appropriate and polite with Amorella. She seems pretty angelic to me, that is, how she stays with me and helps me through in terms of my writing. Discussions with you, my soul, are through Amorella. I am ever appreciative.
You do not always know if you are truly appreciative or not, boy. You internally debate the question though, which shows you are attempting to be on the up and up. - Amorella
1526 hours. Being completely honest with myself is not an easy task. In fact, I cannot always know if I am completely honest with myself or not. It is human not to know if I am completely honest. This is probably one of the main reasons I cannot define what it is to be human other than generalities on genetics and physical behaviors. This brings me back to when in a mystical experience I felt G-D or the Angel of G-D ask: "And, who are you?" or something to that effect. I had no choice but to immediately mentally respond, "I don't know." This is spiritually a very humbling experience. I cannot think of anything more humbling than not knowing who one is.
This keeps you innocent, even I know that. - mh
1538 hours. I am not so innocent. Human beings are basically corruptible. I am no different.
Would you defy G-D? mh
1636 hours. Not with intent. We are not built to defy G-D. Even under Imagination when G-D said, "And, who are you?" I couldn't answer the question. There was no room for me to say anything. I didn't exist in that moment. We are built to be angry with G-D but not to defy G-D. That's my recollection.
You could not defy your Concept of G-D. - Amorella
1642 hours. Yes. I do not know G-D other than my own spiritual sense of G-D. I cannot deny my humanity. This is the reason I am an agnostic. I cannot know. I am not built to know.
Other human beings know when they have met G-D. They have said so. The event changed their lives. - Amorella
1647 hours. In this context, I know nothing. I have always had my doubts. I am built to have doubts. People who have no doubts are full of themselves. I am not so full. I do not know better. I know nothing of the sort. I know I am angry. Is it because I am not so full of myself? I don't know. I don't know who I am spiritually. I consider myself to be an existential transcendentalist, a Unitarian Universalist, if you will. But, as a human being, meeting my concept of G-D or an Angel of G-D directly; I know nothing even with a capital N; Nothing.
Is G-D Nothing? - Amorella
These are words not G-D. G-D is not words. With human beings G-D can only be understood to exist with concepts and words. My sense of G-D cannot be understood by me. This is the one reason why I add a dash, to alter the spelling. I am not going to be manipulated into saying I know something when I truly do not know. I cannot know without doubts. This is myspiritual dilemma. What proof do any of us exist as we do without ourselves to come forth and say we do? There is an unreasoning in all this nonsense. We have only ourselves as proof as to who we are. When confronted even with the Imagination of G-D, me, by myself have no proof of anything, not even my own sense of self. Yet, we accept this condition. We have no choice but to accept it. We are totally humbled by the condition. We are innocent of our own being. We know nothing but our existence individually and together as a species. We are built with a humility no other being on this planet has as far as is known, that is what I know about being human. As a spirit alone, I may lose my sense of doubt, but if I do then I will no longer be a human being, I will be a dead human being unconscious of having doubts. I will be transformed. I feel the living cannot be without doubt by definition of being human. Here I am talking about myself again. I cannot define myself without 'talking'. I 'talk' the 'talk' out of the necessity of being alive. At least when dead I will be quiet, thank G-D. At least you, the Reader, do not have to read. I don't blame you for not reading this. You are under no obligation to read this, but I am obligated to share it anyway. No one in their right mind would continue to read a doubter, an agnostic like myself.
Stop writing. - Amorella
Mr. Orndorff cannot do that. Writing is who he is. He cannot deny himself even to you, Amorella. mh
1727 hours. What is this? Another surprise. Thank you, Miss Havisham, thank you very much.
I am your soul, Mr. Orndorff. I have no choice, but, you are welcome. mh
Post. - Amorella
No problem. Post. - Amorella
You drove to Uptown Westerville to check out the cemetery decorations -- there were next to none, then stopped for a small DQ cone just like in the very olden days, sat in the car eating it across from our old high school on State Street, then home. - Amorella
2110 hours. We did get 48.1 miles per gallon according to the car's computer. It'll be fun keep the stats to see how it is. I measure myself also without using the car's computer to see the differences. There will be some I guarantee it.
You always love to keep car stats. You have all your car booklets since your new 1965 VW Beetle. - mh
2118 hours. Car stats are a fun activity; it is fun to compare the gas mileages and total cost for driving the car from bought to sold (including its price). I will be happy if this car gets an average of more than forty miles per gallon; that will be awesome. It already drives better than the '13 Accord, sportier cornering, more like our '05 Honda Accord but far more comfortable. -- Carol turned on "Rachael Maddow". Time to stop.
