115. Notes - on the day / dreams

115. 8 May 2019

       Mid-morning. You are in the parking lot at the boys' school waiting on Carol who is watching Owen perform at the piano. You listened to him practice yesterday and were not surprised to find him quite talented as he picked up the music at school and found he could play the tune without much trouble. Adults watching have to stand or sit on very small chairs, thus Kim told you to wait as his whole music class is performing individually thus it will take some time. - Amorella

       1005 hours. I gave him a healthy round of applause yesterday. Owen has his own talents as does Brennan. It is interesting watching the two develop in their own areas of interest as well as common ones. Both presently like jujitsu, football, basketball, soccer and golf as well as math, science and reading. Next year Owen will be in the fourth grade and Brennan in the second. I hope they continue to enjoy school. They have a variety of activities, as did Kim growing up. 

       Tomorrow you are to Cincinnati. Carol will meet Ann, Maria and Judy for lunch. You have yet to check with Bud. Earlier you told him you couldn't meet tomorrow because you were going to check out the Toyota dealer nearby while the girls were eating. Now, it's back in Paul's lap as you have a car the dealers will work toward selling you. It is a dark, blue exterior Avalon Limited Hybrid with a beige interior. The car will be built in Kentucky around the twenty-second of this month. It is similar in color only darker outside to the 2013 model you have; the interior leather is close to identical to what you have. - Amorella

       1034 hours. We will just be glad when the buying part is over. Finding the right car for us took a lot of emotional and intellectual energy. We love the Toyota Avalon though, it is fun to drive (for us) and we have never had a car more comfortable to ride in -- short or long trips. The safety features are amazing on the new one and we signed up for the most advanced of such features that the model has. It may be the last car we ever own. If the Avalon Hybrid ever comes up with a fully autonomous model while we are still alive and kicking we'll probably trade in this model for a new one, otherwise, this will be it; at least this is our thinking presently. (No more on the car, I'm tired of talking about it.)

       As you wish, my young man. Post. - Amorella

       This is not really a wish, Mr. Orndorff. You would rather get back to more esoteric thoughts and wonders. Buying and selling presents a harshness; a reality that has little to do with the dreams of a better more humane world in which people could raise their children. To you this has little to do with living in the present one.  mh

       1048 hours. I am not a Utopian thinker. 

       No. You are not. - Amorella

       You are home. Kim will send you and Paul the film of the performances today and you do want to see them. -- A thought flashed a minute or so ago and it has disorganized itself, i.e. gone to fog. - Amorella

       1147 hours. It had something to do with asking my soul to put together a more humane world in my head. Selections of such a world were in the alien Marsupial worlds of the Merlyn books. I already had some concepts that were not Utopian in my mind. I put those concepts in a fiction because I am not too much on how the world should be. I cannot really articulate these things well. The main concept is making a world, or a small part of the world a better place to raise children in a republic of sorts where most everyone can practice being humane in their everyday working and private lives. This even reads as Utopian. Such is the world and we people in it. 

       Back to your basics. Back to your esoteric and philosophical thoughts of decades ago. It is a waste of time and energy, boy. - Amorella

       1237 hours. You are right, Amorella. I have no one else to turn to but you and Miss Havisham. 

       She is less alien to your nature than I am. Talk to your soul as you will. Perhaps she can help you more than I am able to. - Amorella

       1242 hours. You are more angelic-like. I don't want you to go away. I need your stability and your consistency -- your perspective and point of view to help keep me on a humane path.

       I'm not leaving you, young man. I will not desert you. I leave you to talk to your soul more about who you and what a good goal or personal philosophy on what you would like to be while you are alive and fully conscious. - Amorella

       1247 hours. I am tired about thinking about myself all the time, I'd rather be thinking on the worlds of children and how to make things better for them. The world needs a better way to grow up and live humanely. I can contribute my heartanmind to such thinking. I mean, this is what I do -- think what I can, but that's all. I could write of dreams if I had any. 

       
      Post. - Amorella