160. Notes - Amorella's limits in context

160. 7 July 2019

       Mid-afternoon. You are at Heritage Park in Westerville facing west under the shade of some very fine old trees. Mini-picnic of two large diet McD's and three of their cookies. Carol is on page 296 of Harlan C's Darkest Fear. - - Last night you noticed one of your readers had hit this blog of 2017 and upon glancing over you noticed a midway reference to myself that is apropos of yesterday's conversation. - Amorella

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Selected and edited from - Encounters in Mind, blogspot.com

09 OCTOBER 2017

Notes - "a spiritual companion" / way inside out

. . . And, you have two questions about my recent comment on who I am. - Amorella

       2141 hours. First, you always emphasis "the" before Amorella, why? Second, you are a spirit "beside" my own. My first thought is that you are as a doppelgänger, I realize this is incorrect by definition but it appears in this recent context that we are equal since we are "beside" each other. This is not acceptable because seven and some years of blog evidence shows you are above or beyond my sense of heartansoulanmind. Besides, you are not a 'trinity' built spiritual format, are you? I am confused. You have always shown a consistency of being from my perspective of a one-dimensional conscious-like form. (2152)

       I, "the" Amorella, am a unique spiritual being; being within your own heartansoulanmind as well as without. I do not define one dimensional because from your perspective I am non-dimensional. I am not a form. I am a nonphysical consciousness. 

Selected and edited from encountersinmind@blogspot.com

[ A special Thank You to the Reader who read this within the last few days. I would have never found it. :-) ]

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       1633 hours. I enjoy the consistency in our conversations. You say you are unique because you are "within my heartansoulanmind as well as without." You are therefore within two places at once from my perspective. 

       This is so. - Amorella

       1640 hours. If I may ask, what is the other place? 

       Presently, I 'touch' (as it were) your heartansoulanmind and I 'touch' the non-space (as it 

were) between human heartsansoulsanminds and what Miss Havisham refers to as an AN-LE*. - Amorella

[* I will show Mr. Orndorff's soul's sense-of-self and its theoretical environs out to the metaphysical post of this soul's witnessed, in my words, the AN-EL]

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Referenced From: 122. Notes - the intellectual challenge of my life

122. 15 May 2019

       This is Mr. Orndorff's soul personified. The name I choose to be called is Miss Havisham. I am personified by Mr. Orndorff's spiritual-like writing guide of some thirty years, Amorella.I will show Mr. Orndorff's soul's sense-of-self and its theoretical environs out to the metaphysical post of this soul's witnessed, in my words, the AN-EL. Amorella is also our translator, i.e. his outer immortal soul, Miss Havisham, translates dialogue and observation to and from orndorff's inner mortal heartanmind which is stored and protected within my metaphysical Happenstance. Mr. Orndorff will be known by what he is on a most personal spiritual level, Orndorff, the Agnostic. - mh

       Post. - Amorella

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       1709 hours. You, the Amorella, are from myself to the theoretical environs that Miss Havisham may witness.

       In context with this Spirit-Blog and the Mind-Blog, Yes, these are my relevant reference points. - Amorella.

       1715 hours. I accept this definition, mainly because I cannot imagine going beyond these points of reference. 

       You can imagine going beyond these points of reference but choose not to. I can accept this also. - Post. Amorella

       1727 hours. Your references make sense as the focus in on Miss Havisham. You are a very wise spirit, Amorella. Thank you.

       You are stronger willed than you think, young man. - Amorella

       1730 hours. I am an existential transcendentalist. 

       You would say this directly to G-D in the same manner. - Amorella

       1734 hours. What is this metaphysical post Miss Havisham is referring to as AN-LE; this end of the line of Miss Havisham's metaphysical environs?

       Miss Havisham's AN-LE 'postmark' is analogical to a line a living heartansoulanmind spirit cannot cross, but a soul without a heartanmind may cross. - Amorella

       A good place to stop. Carol just completed her novel. Post. - Amorella

       

159. Notes - equally sacred / enjoying this

159. 6 July 2019

       Saturday, mid-morning. You are facing the eastern trees in Heritage Park near the north picnic area. Carol is on her walk. You spent most of your focus yesterday on buying a new sound bar to better go with your 'renewed' 2016 fifty-five-inch LED Sony TV given to you and Carol by Kim and Paul who recently purchased fancy fifty-five-inch non-LED TV. Paul is installing their 'refurbished' set today. Two weeks ago, your old sound bar stopped working. Your 2012 fifty-inch TV still works but does not have the bells and whistles the 2016 TV has. - Amorella

       1004 hours. This electronics business is all rather cut and dry, but the research had to be done. Research into any subject is fun at the time because I almost always learn something I did not know about a subject. 

       And why orndorff, is it you do not wish to do more research on me, the Amorella?

       1009 hours. Why, because I am respectful of your position as a Spirit. It is my right to be respectful. I am not doubtful as to what you are, not really, anymore. You have stood the test of my time and human experience. Even if you are completely imaginary, you come from a sacred area within the human experience, a sacred place within where sacredness originates. I am respectful of that place because it is a condition that allows us to grow as individuals and community. And, this goes backs to a variety of books I have read including The Sacred and Profane: The Nature of Religionby Mircea Eliade which I used notes from and eluded to in lectures for my World Mythology junior/senior quarter classes at Indian Hill High School in Cincinnati in the 1970's. I have done research on 'your' setting within me and our species, Amorella. 

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A quick review from Amazon books:

The Sacred and The Profane: The Nature of Religion 

by Mircea Eliade  (Author), Willard R. Trask (Translator)

A highly original and scholarly work on spirituality by noted historian Mircea Eliade

In The Sacred and the Profane, Mircea Eliade observes that while contemporary people believe their world is entirely profane, or secular, they still at times find themselves connected unconsciously to the memory of something sacred. It's this premise that both drives Eliade's exhaustive exploration of the sacred; as it has manifested in space, time, nature and the cosmos, and life itself; and buttresses his expansive view of the human experience.

Selected and edited from - https://www.amazon.com/Sacred-Profane-Nature-Religion/dp/015679201X

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       You are home. Carol is mowing the grass; you will be trimming the lawn this evening. Ah, Carol comes in to rest from the midday heat. - Amorella

       1132 hours. I am appreciative of your providing a door to the spiritual world through my soul, Miss Havisham. I would not have thought of a soul as a doorway to a greater spiritual world but it appears quite reasonable as any. I wonder, does the spiritual world have an equivalent of the Sacred and the Profane? 

       Good question, orndorff. It does have an equivalent in context. The soul does not 'hover' about the affairs of heartanmind nor do the heart and mind have like interest or needs, as it were. The Living can observe this for themselves. Where does the mind go when you are not consciously using it? Where does the heart go when you are not consciously using it? The soul? Most people don't pay any attention to it unless there is or appears to be a terrible moral conflict that must be addressed. Where I am, what am I doing when Amorella is not in your conscious life? What is the striking difference between using Amorella or the Amorella from my perspective? People have the odd capacity to wonder where G-D is when they don't even consider where their own souls are. - Amorella

       1147 hours. That's funny, Amorella. You are right. People wonder on G-D without really considering their own souls first. That is, aside from the soul being saved or damned; or that is, the heartanmind are to be damned or saved; the soul appears indifferent, a carriage, and neither savable or damnable. At least in context, in here, in this blog. Why don't people consider these things, especially in a down to earth way -- without the heavy philosophy and theology? . . . Is the soul sacred within itself, without a heartansoul? Is it more sacred carrying a heartansoul?

       The soul alone and the soul containing a human-like heartanmind are equally sacred in context with today's blog. Post. - Amorella

       Afternoon. You had lunch at the new Scramblers on US23 across from Kroger's Marketplace and are now in the valley of Slate Park. Carol is on page 320 of Cowen's Darkest Fear. You are wondering about the Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy material from a few days ago. Let's open it up and see what we have on "Ancient Theories of Soul" in a semi-outline form. - Amorella

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1. The Greek Notion of Soul

". . . while Homer spoke of soul only in the case of human beings, in sixth and fifth century usage, soul is attributed to every kind of living thing. What is in place, then, at this time is the notion that soul is what distinguishes that which is alive from that which is not. 

However, it is not just that soul is said to be present in every living thing. It is also the case that an increasingly broad range of ways of acting and being acted on is attributed to the soul. Thus, it has come to be natural, by the end of the fifth century, to refer pleasure taken in food and drink, as well as sexual desire, to the soul."

         Your response, Miss Havisham. - Amorella

         The soul containing human heartanmind is not spiritual energy. Spiritual energy exists in all living things and is exponentlyexpelled and receivable by humanity through empathetical aspects of the brain. The soul has no human related determination other than protecting and comforting the human heartanmind. mh

2. Pre-Socratic Thinking about the Soul

". . . Like many (or indeed all) sixth and fifth century thinkers who expressed views on the nature or constitution of the soul, Heraclitus thought that the soul was bodily, but composed of an unusually fine or rare kind of matter, e.g. air or fire. (A possible exception is the Pythagorean Philolaus, who may have held that the soul is an ‘attunement’ of the body; cf. Barnes 1982, 488-95, and Huffman.) The prevalence of the idea that the soul is bodily explains the absence of problems about the relation between soul and body. Soul and body were not thought to be radically different in kind; their difference seemed just to consist in a difference in degree of properties such as fineness and mobility."

         The soul is wholly spiritual and not matter. The soul is spiritual the body is material. Within/beside the body exists the spiritual heartanmind which 'absorbs' aspects of the mix of emotional and intellectual solitary estrangement in the brain. - mh

         Later evening. You have been busy since afternoon. Kim, Paul and the boys were over. Paul brought over his 2016 Sony TV and hook it and your new soundbar up and you gave him your old soundbar to use with one of his TVs. You broke it in tonight by watching a new episode of "Bosch" and 'Midsomer Murders". Post what you have. - Amorella

        2254 hours. I am really enjoying this. Interesting to think on even if conjecture. 

158. Notes -" authenticity the key" - Amorella

158. 4 July 2019

       Mid-afternoon. You had a good dinner at Texas Roadhouse and are presently facing west at Westerville's quite quiet Heritage Park opposite the north end picnic area on this warm and humid-like summer day. Miss Havisham wants you to begin with that ancient philosophy on the soul, but I, the Amorella, am setting up the focus. I will go through the Stanford document to set up the criteria Miss H. can comment on. Why? Because my consistencies and standards apply first, even before yours, orndorff.

       1522 hours. This was unexpected, but I understand. You have provided a consistency though both blogs, and even so into the three original hardbound Merlyn novels which you 'supervised' -- one novel published every year for three years. What is the key for 'standardization' Amorella, if I may ask?

       Authenticity, my young friend. - Amorella

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authenticity - noun - the quality of being authentic: the paper should have established the authenticity of the documents before publishing them.

authentic - adjective - 

1 of undisputed origin; genuine: the letter is now accepted as an authentic document | authentic 14th-century furniture. 

• made or done in the traditional or original way, or in a way that faithfully resembles an original: the restaurant serves authentic Italian meals | every detail of the movie was totally authentic. 

• based on facts; accurate or reliable: an authentic depiction of the situation. 

• (in existentialist philosophy) relating to or denoting an emotionally appropriate, significant, purposive, and responsible mode of human life.

ORIGIN late Middle English: via Old French from late Latin authenticus, from Greek authentikos ‘principal, genuine’.

Selected and edited from the Oxford/American

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       1536 hours. I understand this to a point, but much of this material is not based on facts as such but rather on my subjective response to self-documentation. Facts about me are basically subjective by definition and cannot be objectively quantified. This is embarrassing me because I cannot by definition be objective about myself other than I am a standard issue human being with standard human behaviors at least from what I have learned at the college, and graduate level. 

       You and others of your kind are facts to the Amorella. You exist. I know and accept this because I existed first and foremost before human and other similar like existences with heartsansoulsanminds. 

       1607 hours. Decades ago, I asked you if "Amorella" meant "little love" because that's what I saw from the Latin I remember. Originally, in the 1990's, you chose to call yourself "Romela" in my Notes. To me, "ella" in Latin means "she". Anyway, I always use the feminine pronoun. 

       Carol forgot she needed detergent for clothes, so here you are at Kroger's in north Westerville. - Amorella

       1654 hours. Alas, even if what you say is true, I am the factual one because I legally exist. If you, the Amorella, existed before the universe as we know it was formed, then this is only your subjective opinion. No witnesses. I do not know, or pretend to know, who or what friendly spirit you are. I take you at your word, literally and figuratively, (I choose to have no choice) and by me having 'witnessed' you (mentally/spiritually) for decades. These words in blogs and fictions surround your 'space' or 'grace', as it were. I understand/accept you being between the words and lines on the proverbial page, so to speak. I am a primary witness within this context presently. It is easiest and most practical for me to see you as a real spirit who displays contextual anger or kindness towards me from time to time. This demonstrational display has always been accepted by me for my personal spiritual self-learning. If nothing more this blog, this 'device of thought' is, as contextually as real as I am. I have nothing else to say presently. (1742)

       Post. - Amorella

       2250 hours. As the agnostic that I am, I cannot believe you are anything but a figment of my imagination based on past spiritual-like events that appeared Real to me. Again, as above with yourself, Amorella, I am a witness with no proof, only, at most, circumstantial evidence based on many decades of written Notes I have taken and kept copies of. I feel I am a reasonable man and have led a reasonable human life professionally and privately. I have both a romantic and neo-classic nature and thus I am particularly drawn to both in my writing and art. This shows throughout all of my kept writings, even from back in high school and college days. This is a part of my basic human condition and I have no choice but to consciously accept this fully; even before G-D, I cannot think of anything else I would say, except that, if G-D is indeed Real, G-D already more fully knows my heartansoulanmind than I presently or ever will, I imagine. (2310) - rho

      Post. - Amorella

157. Notes - whimsical entertainment

157. 1 July 2019

       Late evening. Driving Day II. Knoxville to Westerville. Supper at Potbelly's with Kim, Owen and Brennan while Paul was playing a round of golf with friends. You and Carol are both still unpacking. A few minutes ago, you read an article in today's Columbus Dispatch about a 'soul's companion'. The focus was on a husband or wife who lost her or his companion for life. What is your question? - Amorella

       2309 hours. I don't really know what or who is supposed to be the soul's companion. -- I spent some time reading from the Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy's "Ancient Theories of Soul", and copying 21 pages worth of very interesting material. 

       Tomorrow, and as time permits I will sort through this material I give you my perspective. - mh

       2335 hours. I cannot imagine you doing this, Miss Havisham.

       The point is to give you a theoretical perspective from this soul's objective perspective. Can the soul be detached? Of course. How else could one lose her or his soul? - mh

       2341 hours. This is an example of one of the reasons I think you are a made of character by Amorella, who for all I know, may also be a made-up character. It doesn't take much of an agnostic to see through this as a whimsical self-induced private entertainment for no other earthly reason than to take up time from the mind and the heart, i.e. to make them puppets to get by another day of mental distraction. 

       Post, my young friend. - Amorella

156. Notes - one of the thankful

156. 28 June 2019

       Late afternoon. Carol is napping and Kim, Paul and the boys are in the living room. Kim and Paul are napping and the boys are watching the old Spiderman II. Tonight, pizza at Original Pizza up the road at Indian Shores. Bill and Linda are coming too. You are both mostly packed. Tomorrow morning you leave the condo and return to Linda and Bill's. Lunch is at the original Columbia in Ybor City near downtown Tampa. - Amorella

       1701 hours. Yesterday's conversation was interesting and reasonable enough. I had not thought about Miss Havisham as an antennae into the spirit world. And, I had not realized that 'Nothing" could be visualized by using words. As description the "folds" did it for me. I had not thought of the heartansoulanmind folded, or rather, the heartanmind folded into the soul. (1707)

       The spiritual heartansoulanmind are three-folded. I did not say the heartanmind were folded into the soul. - mh

       1713 hours. The spiritual heartanmind have to fit into the soul's shell for protection and comfort because they are not immortal and the soul is.

       Really now, how does that work in Nothing? - Amorella

       

       1731 hours. I don't know. I had a visual of a three-folded blanket, perhaps spinning and in spinning the soul creates a cloak. 

       Draw three straight lines on top of one another. - mh

       1737 hours. It would appear as one straight line with the adding of a line it would appear to dissolve into the original. 

       But you would have added twice to it; it would be an untruth to say you did not add the two lines to the first, but still it would be counted as one. I, an immortal soul, add a spiritual human heart and a human mind. This is the truth. I am still one immortal soul. Without me, you, the spiritual you, does not exist. Why? Because a spiritual human heartanmind includes one of my spiritual kind. mh

       2100 hours. This sort of thing can be debated forever.

       What a dark humor, my man. Quite funny, and it explains a point of spiritual setting better than if I bring it up myself. - Amorella

       2104 hours. An analogy arises from nothing at all. I dare not take the time to think it out. The thinking might be the hell of it. 

       What a wonderful irony were this true, Mr. Orndorff. - mh

       2108 hours. Misconstrued by a Wonderland rabbit. Or, screwed, either way. 

       Fortunately for everyone, tempering humor knows no bounds in any circumstance, my man. - Amorella

       2126 hours. For this I am one of the thankful. 

       Post. - Amorella

155. Notes - the point of Words

155. 27 June 2019

       Late morning. Turn on the car air conditioning, boy. - Amorella

       1136 hours. I'm waiting for Carol who is at the Hallmark store for wrapping paper. It is pretty hot but I don't think she'll be in that long, just trying to save on fuel. I'm surprised you said something, Amorella, but thank you. I don't question what you say too much. It is 93 degrees so it is hotter than I thought.

       One would think your ancient adventures stuck at the bottom of the Grand Canyon would be enough to stick in your mind for a lifetime. - Amorella

       1142 hours. You are right. I wasn't thinking. I was eighteen. Still, we should have known better back then, even known better now. Old people have problems in the heat. Coming on, I was thinking about how there isn't much of a plan developed (by me) to lay out the metaphysics involved. Point to point we have Miss Havisham out to the nearest 'angelic-like posting in two dimensions. We have two kinds of spirits though others are noted. Miss Havisham has her own sense of baggage beyond a spiritual heartanmind. I seem to be stumbling on to things, so to speak, but it is all rather random. This was supposed to be intellectually challenging. I am not doing my part. 

       You are the intellectual challenge, my man. - Amorella

       1154 hours. Oh. I should have known. Funny joke, Amorella

       You are not offended. - Amorella

       1155 hours. No. I wasn't thinking about what you and Miss Havisham are having to deal with. Humor and irony abide. Among two spirits and being two-thirds physical I'm the hybrid, as it were. Who was the girl in the Merlyn stories who was a hybrid, half Earthling and half Marsupialan? You would think I could remember this. Now I'm drawing a blank on most all of the characters. 

       Evening. Below is the original information about your 'intellectual challenge', orndorff. - Amorella

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122. Notes - the intellectual challenge of my life

122. 15 May 2019

. . . I am excited as I foresee a focused project on the horizon. 

       This is Mr. Orndorff's soul personified. The name I choose to be called is Miss Havisham. I am personified by Mr. Orndorff's spiritual-like writing guide of some thirty years, Amorella. I will show Mr. Orndorff's soul's sense-of-self and its theoretical environs out to the metaphysical post of this soul's witnessed, in my words, the AN-EL. Amorella is also our translator, i.e. his outer immortal soul, Miss Havisham, translates dialogue and observation to and from orndorff's inner mortal heartanmind which is stored and protected within my metaphysical Happenstance. Mr. Orndorff will be known by what he is on a most personal spiritual level, Orndorff, the Agnostic. - mh

       Post. - Amorella

       2158 hours. Until a short time ago I had no conscious idea of this project. This looks like it is going to be a fun project; the best hypothetical project of my entire writing life. I am ready for the intellectual challenge.

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       1936 hours. I am the Agnostic as I don't really believe any of this as fully factual. This dialogue with Miss Havisham and Amorella is real as dialogue but the characters other than myself may well be fully imagined unconsciously. No one 'knows' including myself. If I can intuitively gain from the conversation a hint of plausible metaphysics then, for me, it is worthy of experimentation. Presently then, I am back to Miss Havisham's comment of two days ago on "baggage of the soul" which I thought I might have misinterpreted from "baggage in the soul". Amorella states that the correct interpretation is "baggage of the soul". I am not fully spiritual. Too much physics and connections of the naming of things. I need to use the likes of personification in the abstracted contraction -- analogies. Miss Havisham has stated that she has a 'natural spiritual shell' that separates her from the physical universe and that she has within her spiritual body a place for the human spiritual heartanmind to fully rest comfortably as a trinity of heartansoulanmind, an individual human spirit.

       A three-folded spiritual heartansoulanmind is a clearer factual [from my perspective] statement than 'trinity' which has religious connotations. This is a natural spiritual ordering. The English word, 'supernatural' and its connotations do not exist in our spiritual realm. The 'baggage' I refer to is in the spiritual space between the folds; a spiritual lint, as it were. - mh

       2009 hours. I have to see a definition of 'lint' to allow me less chance to stray from your intended meaning, Miss Havisham.

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lint - noun 

- short, fine fibers that separate from the surface of cloth or yarn, especially during processing. 

• a fabric, originally of linen, with a raised nap on one side, used for dressing wounds. 

• the fibrous material of a cotton boll. 

ORIGIN late Middle English lynnet‘ flax prepared for spinning’, perhaps from Old French linette ‘linseed’, from lin ‘flax’.

Selected and edited from the Oxford/American software

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       The key to the spiritual meaning of 'lint' is seen in the Old French linette for linseed. It is for all intents and purposes as a spiritual seed, i.e. a beginning purpose, a spiritual idea or concept that is as 'worn away' in the folding. - mh

       2027 hours. Wow. I can visualize this spiritually though nothing is here. 

       This is the point, Mr. Orndorff. Amorella and I must visualize nothing and your human spirit has to translate this picture. If you had no spirit you could not visual this. - mh

       Post. - Amorella

       2032 hours. I am much appreciative. You leave me wordless at times. 

       That can be the point of Words also. - Amorella

154. Notes - 'baggage of the soul' / fewer choices

154. 26 June 2019

       You are at Linda and Bill's. Bill is working on cleaning up on the recent work of reconstructing their bedroom which will be completed mid-July. Carol and Linda are at the hairdressers. 

       1020 hours. I was looking over some Internet definitions of 'spiritual reality' and find the definitions lacking part from ambiguity and part from personal viewpoints of what spiritual reality is or might be. From this I whittled spiritual reality down to First Cause. 

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First cause, in philosophy, the self-created being (i.e., God) to which every chain of causes must ultimately go back. The term was used by Greek thinkers and became an underlying assumption in the Judeo-Christian tradition. Many philosophers and theologians in this tradition have formulated an argument for the existence of God by claiming that the world that man observes with his senses must have been brought into being by God as the first cause. The classic Christian formulation of this argument came from the medieval theologian St. Thomas Aquinas, who was influenced by the thought of the ancient Greek philosopher Aristotle. Aquinas argued that the observable order of causation is not self-explanatory. It can only be accounted for by the existence of a first cause; this first cause, however, must not be considered simply as the first in a series of continuing causes, but rather as first cause in the sense of being the cause for the whole series of observable causes.

The 18th-century German philosopher Immanuel Kant rejected the argument from causality because, according to one of his central theses, causality cannot legitimately be applied beyond the realm of possible experience to a transcendent cause.

Protestantism generally has rejected the validity of the first-cause argument; nevertheless, for most Christians it remains an article of faith that God is the first cause of all that exists.The person who conceives of God in this way is apt to look upon the observable world as contingent—i.e., as something that could not exist by itself.

Selected and edited from - ps://www.britannica.com/topic/first-cause

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       1032 hours. The above easily fits into my personal view, because it is cultural view I held growing up, but this does not mean that reality is something that could not exist by itself. That is another question, and a secondary one at that. If a transcendent cause is [a Kantian] one, and is 'beyond the limits of all possible experience and knowledge' then human beings cannot legitimately respond. Then this thought exercise is beyond a waste of time (1044)

       Thought is not beyond the baggage of the soul, Mr. Orndorff. 

       1627 hours. What is the baggage within, Miss Havisham? First, however, I need to look up 'baggage'. 

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baggage - noun - 

1 personal belongings packed in suitcases for traveling; luggage. • the portable equipment of an army. 

2 past experiences or long-held ideas regarded as burdens and impediments: the emotional baggage I'm hauling around | the party jettisoned its traditional ideological baggage. 

ORIGIN late Middle English: from Old French bagage (from baguer ‘tie up’), or bagues ‘bundles’; perhaps related to bag.

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       Baggage of the soul does not relate to a human being's spiritual heartanmind, Mr. Orndorff. 

        Time for a break, orndorff. Post. Amorella

       2219 hours. 'Baggage of the soul' is not the same thing in English as 'baggage in the soul'. Did I make a mistake in translation Miss Havisham?

       I will make corrections where I see fit, orndorff. - Amorella

       2223 hours. I still make mistakes in interpretation, Amorella. I am notorious through my entire life making such mistakes through over-interpretation and under-interpretation. I make grammar mistakes, all kinds of writing mistakes. The irony overflows with the most humbling humors. Me, an English major -- as a student teacher at Olentangy High my guiding teacher privately suggested that I go into another kind of work than teaching English -- this is after I spelled 'Grammer' on the board and didn't think a thing of it. She corrected me privately and I changed it acting like I just made a stupid mistake and knew better. This admission is most humbling. To be honest though, I couldn't teach anything else except perhaps history if I had three more hours at the time. Even then, so many history majors were also physical education coaches. That's how I remember it. 

       You genuinely feel you had no choice as far as teaching was concerned. Basically, you had fewer choices. Post. - Amorella